Sometimes I think I don't know myself anymore. Lately, I've been having stressful times at making decisions among things that in my heart I want to do versus the conventions put forth by circumstances. I knew I'm done and over with fickle-mindedness, but how come I feel half-convinced, half-regretful after putting my foot down every time? Somehow, there's this bitter aftertaste and I couldn't get over with it. It bites and I know that if don't take action, it will devour my entire being down to my last toenail.
Maybe what's killing me more is that judgmental look piercing through me whenever I say "No." and everyone else says "Yes." It would backfire to me, just as casual as one would normally walk in the room by the main door. It gives me the impression that I'm missing out on a lot, when in truth, it's not really a matter of life and death. It sears too much, it jerks me off into compromising. It just sucks.
I'm seeing the consequences of my uncertainties. I've become more and more insecure and it's robbing me of my joy.
I need to get my joy back. It's mine to share.
Maybe what's killing me more is that judgmental look piercing through me whenever I say "No." and everyone else says "Yes." It would backfire to me, just as casual as one would normally walk in the room by the main door. It gives me the impression that I'm missing out on a lot, when in truth, it's not really a matter of life and death. It sears too much, it jerks me off into compromising. It just sucks.
I'm seeing the consequences of my uncertainties. I've become more and more insecure and it's robbing me of my joy.
I need to get my joy back. It's mine to share.
1 comment:
get back to your joy but don't compromise your feelings. be true to yourself because that's yours to have. other than joy, it's the only best thing to share to others.
hugs from here.
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